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That Evening

by Geethika Sodhi
(Ghaziabad, India)

That evening
I lingered through the town
Sat by the sea
Waiting for hours
That for once You will come
Put your hand on my shoulder
And when I turn back say
“Hi thanks for coming I have
waited for this for so long”
You will take me to the place
Of your favourite song

You were busy Doing
What you do best
Hiding and chasing
Cutting and grazing
I knew you were around
I sat there wondering
Was I actually called
Or was I thrown to a delusion
I waited and waited to be found

Disowned and heart broken
I laughed at myself
For hoping that I was here
To help you heal and recover
From something I had caused
My world I had left behind
Everything I had in life
Every feeling I ever had
My loyalty my honesty at stake
My whole life behind forgotten and paused

It was the longest
I ever waited
You played
You baited
Someone’s love was a joke
You misdirected
You created

Someone leaving behind
Her all to listen to you
To ask how she could help
To say a thank you
Was a joke you could say
A heart you could break like clay
A game you could play
Entertainment for your people
That you served on the tray

Sympathy Empathy
You deserve none
You did what you did
Dusted and done
These unapologetic players
Of your crime and game

The goblins the monsters
Soul less and lame
Masked Talking behaving like me
Sticking to your name
You cheered them at my cost
They picked you after years of abandoning
Simply For their numbers and fame

You deserve what you choose
Being seen with Characters
That are uncontrollable and loose
You picked someone
Going through times
that were dark
You gave attention
Without intention
Made her dignity
An open park

She saved herself
Through the darkest alone
She assumed you were
Her entwined clone
You stabbed you hated
You raped her soul
You threw her to misery
To an abusive troll

This fame this pride
Won’t last forever
These goblins
were never before she came
They won’t be there Forever
But these blood stains
On your hands
Cry love you raped and killed
Your destiny
Will one day cry
Helpless and stilled

Whatever you get
Will always be dishonest
You will crave for a home
For a beautiful nest
But the destiny will throw you
To people like your own
People who would break you
In your darkest
People who would disown. #geet

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